I'm sick and I'm just not feeling life right now. He's in my dreams, almost every night. So I wake up insanely sad. This will and has happened for days on end. I don't know how to stop it either. The only thing I want is our friendship back. But I feel so out of control. 

I also haven't heard from someone else either lately and I don't know what to do about that. It's making me terribly anxious. 

Two reasons for being sad. 

I hate everyone.