Wth

My mind is everywhere, like literally everywhere. I just need to take a trip and get out of here. Cause I'm so confused and so lost.

I also made a decision about something.

I thought of the best idea I could have ever thought of. And I really wanna start it.  But what's the point if who I'm doing it for won't see it? So who knows if I'll even do it. But like I'm so proud of myself for thinking of it. I showed the plan to my friend who will help me and she came back to me saying: whoah Paula. 

It's meaningful, contains a ton of effort, and it's pretty damn thoughtful. I can't share what it is because I can't risk anyone knowing. 

It's my last attempt though. If I even do it.

IF.